I was burning out I had no time for myself, my scriptures felt dusty, my prayers began to be short and repetitive, I couldn’t feel the spirit. I felt like I hit rock bottom. I started comparing my weaknesses to other mother’s strengths. Looking back I wouldn’t trade all that pain and suffering. Heavenly father had been molding me to become who he needed me to be. When I start to doubt and slip I always refer to a certain book that had helped me tremendously it’s called “Better than you think you are “ by Ardeth g Kapp.  I have learned and grew so much and I’m curious to see what heavenly father has in store for me in the future. I still want to continue to foster and have children of my own. I had to learn to trust my heavenly father and his plan for me. I had to walk by faith every day even though my anxiety would creep up and remember to praise him when I got through my day! I had to heed and lean on the promptings of his spirit to guide me.  All in all I knew that god has a plan for me and everyone! I learned on a spiritual level about the atonement and the plan of salvation.  Even on hard days when I begin to doubt myself and put the natural man in my way, heavenly father somehow reminds me of why I do what I do and magnifies my ability far more than I ever thought I could do on my own! Even though I’m not perfect in others eyes because I’m not crafty (I rather have someone make it for me) I just don’t cook a 4 course meal (mac and cheese and turkey hotdogs is what they love or the typical local meal rice and chicken katsu) or my kids get into trouble (that’s okay we all make mistakes we weren’t promised perfection in this life) which is really hard for me is letting go the judgments others make of my parenting. I know heavenly father is pleased with me regardless of the physical things because spiritually he sees my intentions and he knows and loves me for who I am he put me here, this is my purpose to mother his children. I just want to thank you for sharing your life story you have strengthened, inspired, and empowered me to keep doing what I do and to trust heavenly fathers plan. I wish you nothing but the best god bless you and your Ohana (family.)