I used to dream of having a cupboard full of junk food in my house. To me that meant happiness and that things were going well.I really used to dream of this mystical cupboard full of twinkies, ding dings, goldfish, pretzels, peanut butter crackers, red vines, m&m’s soda. I know it is silly but, I used to babysit for this lady that had a pantry full of oreo’s and all kinds of goodies. I couldn’t wait for a home of my home so that I to could have that.
Then, a few things happened. I realized the lady that I babysat for was well…rich and I wasn’t. This still became a distant dream for me. Then we moved to Germany and well…enough said. After that it was on to New York and talk about poor. John went to the Culinary Institute of America (a really expensive culinary school). John had all of his meals at the school that boasts several 4 star restaurants. The 2 kids and I? macaroni and cheese, ramen, peanut butter and jelly but alas, no junk food cupboard.
On to moving to Auburn Hills, Michigan. Again, some of the same issues arose especially lack of finances. We bought our first house that needed to be gutted and everything redone. When that was complete we added on a little. Whew! We were finally done and a few goodies found their way into my cupboard but not enough to really call it a “goodie cupboard”. Then, we moved to Utah. While being here I have managed to acquire many things like some awesome children but the treat cupboard still alludes me. part of me is grateful because i am already overweight. But, the other part, longs for the day when the cupboard becomes a reality. Just to understand, i don’t want to eat the stuff in there, I just want to look at it and know that everything is as it should be, Finally!